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Showing posts with label growth. Show all posts
Showing posts with label growth. Show all posts

Monday, April 11, 2011

Silent roses

Remember the earrings I was working on? 
I spent a good part of Friday night just staring at them. 
Wondering why they didn't speak to me.
Something was off. 
They didn't sing to me.
It didn't feel like they were completely mine.
It's true, sometimes we make things that we don't love...


I realized that the commercial components that I used for the dangling parts,
instead of making sweet music just sort of fell flat.
It wasn't truly made by my two hands.
And I wasn't loving what I was seeing.
It really didn't look like what I had envisioned for them.
I felt like I had failed my roses.
Like they had gotten all dressed up for the party 
and I came to pick them up on an old rusty bike.

So I did what any crazy person would have done.
I took them all apart.
Removed those pesky dangles...
ick! and threw them in the scrap pile!
I cut wire,  balled ends.
Made filigree leafs.
Twist, bend, shape and twirls.
Thousands it felt like.
Hours flew by.

Hammering, sweating in the studio.
Bending, shaping.
Soldering, pickling, tumbling....

Looking at my new dangling leaf vines.
I feel so proud. I think I have done them justice.
They are so me. 
And my beaten up fingers and broken nails are proof of it.
If something doesn't feel right,
it probably isn't right.

And it feels so rewarding to do something about it!
Even if it takes hours to get there.

Photos to come in a day or two.
Right now I am too busy staring at them :o)
And they'll be in my Etsy shop on Friday at 3pm.


love ~tess

Wednesday, December 15, 2010

Let's talk about blog - Where do you aspire to be in 5 years?

The Handmade division team do a blog post 
on a common topic on the 15th of each month...

I thought a lot about this.
 
I want to be a mother...
That comes absolutely first.
I am no spring chicken and I've always 
wanted a bunch of kids.
feels like I need to get started soon...

I can see it so clearly in my mind. 

I'm standing in front of our countryside house. Apron and all. Probably wearing wooden clogs too. Lisa and stella are chasing a mouse around the house. And our children are chasing them. I can smell the fresh bread baking in the oven. David is in his studio. The converted red barn. I spend a lot of time outside. In the garden. With my apple tree's and my gooseberry bushes. Planting seeds in the little greenhouse. 

Soil under my finger nails. 
And the sun in my heart.

When the kids take a nap I'll go in the studio and play with metal and stones. I'm not rushed. I can take my time. There is no soul sucking day job I have to go to. There's time. Time to reflect. 
Time to enjoy. Time to smile.
It's an old house with a big porch with one of those swings. That's where David and I sit after the kids have gone to bed. Sipping our tea. Cozy under the blanket.  Grateful for everything we've been blessed with. 
I can so clearly see us getting old together.


I want to be a wife, a mother and a better person. One should always strive to be a better person.. and I want to spend my time in places that makes me happy, surrounded by people I love.

No more compromises.

So there you have it. 
Maybe more of a dream than anything. 
But that is where I aspire to be in 5 years.
~tess


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