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Wednesday, December 15, 2010

Let's talk about blog - Where do you aspire to be in 5 years?

The Handmade division team do a blog post 
on a common topic on the 15th of each month...

I thought a lot about this.
 
I want to be a mother...
That comes absolutely first.
I am no spring chicken and I've always 
wanted a bunch of kids.
feels like I need to get started soon...

I can see it so clearly in my mind. 

I'm standing in front of our countryside house. Apron and all. Probably wearing wooden clogs too. Lisa and stella are chasing a mouse around the house. And our children are chasing them. I can smell the fresh bread baking in the oven. David is in his studio. The converted red barn. I spend a lot of time outside. In the garden. With my apple tree's and my gooseberry bushes. Planting seeds in the little greenhouse. 

Soil under my finger nails. 
And the sun in my heart.

When the kids take a nap I'll go in the studio and play with metal and stones. I'm not rushed. I can take my time. There is no soul sucking day job I have to go to. There's time. Time to reflect. 
Time to enjoy. Time to smile.
It's an old house with a big porch with one of those swings. That's where David and I sit after the kids have gone to bed. Sipping our tea. Cozy under the blanket.  Grateful for everything we've been blessed with. 
I can so clearly see us getting old together.


I want to be a wife, a mother and a better person. One should always strive to be a better person.. and I want to spend my time in places that makes me happy, surrounded by people I love.

No more compromises.

So there you have it. 
Maybe more of a dream than anything. 
But that is where I aspire to be in 5 years.
~tess


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9 comments:

  1. Sounds great and not too much dissimilar from mine! ;-) X

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  2. how nice! sounds fabulous, minus the kids. well for me anyway - your imaginary kids sound lovely!

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  3. Thank you for taking the time to read my thoughts :o)

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  4. Sounds lovely....you can't be THAT old!!! Your dream sounds almost like my life...2 kids, Edwardian Era House in the country that was very neglected until we came along and decided to rescue her, large porch with swing overlooking the fields to the panoramic sunsets, bread baking and always a home made meal...but naps don't exist here...So I have to pay a babysitter to get my kid free time. But the oldest starts kindergarten next year, then I will have free time to create.

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  5. Wow! You painted such a beautiful picture in my head! Thank you for reminding me of what I wanted my life to be like once I had kids... oh so long ago now... Now that I have kids it has become so easy to fall into the "rat race" of society - forget to enjoy the little moments. The peaceful moments. I'm more determined than ever (after reading your post) to move back to my property in Michigan and live the simple life again. :) In five years....

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I treasure your words and the fact that you are
taking the time to share them with me.
Please forgive me if I don't respond personally to you.
I always try but sometimes time just flies away!
love ~tess