reflections and realizations

I am here

I'm always here... Some days I'm just very quiet. 

Doing more reading more than writing.

I get lost in my head sometimes and never make it out to share with you.

The last couple of days have been very much like that. Reflections.

What makes you happy? 

Where do you want to be in 10 years from now?

Life goes by so fast. I want so much for my future family.

Those (yet to be made) wonderful little blond curly heads 

that David and I will have together.

I want so much for David and myself.  A better life.

and I get homesick sometimes. 
I miss the forests. The lakes. The nature. 

I miss the people. My family and friends. 
It's been almost 7 years now.

I feel the wind blowing. 
There is time for a change. 
Not sure yet what that change might be. 
But it needs to happen. It's a cycle I go through...
 David and I have spoke about this change. 
And what that might be. 

It's still just a tiny seed in our minds right now.

A tiny thought seed that has to flourish into something bigger, 

stronger and eventually something real.

I've realized one thing. Life happens here. 

Here in our home. With the furballs.

Life is with David. That is what is real.

What matters.

It's most definitely not happening on

facebook, twitter, flickr or Etsy.

The more time spent there. The less time spent in real life.

It's simple math. And it's one change I can make now.

But I am still present. 

Maybe not talking as much as just

watching, reading and reflecting.

It will be a good change for me.

love ~tess