It's time to make room for new memories
It's safe to say that my clothes have been spilling out from the
wooden closets and the newly acquired gray dresser and slowly
taken over the bedroom (and possibly parts of the living room...)
They are out of control and needs to be taught some manners.
Don't they know that they should crawl from the floor
into the white laundry bins in the bathroom?
And the dirty socks seem to multiply in droves on the floor next to the bed.
And beside their serious lack of crawling abilities some of them
should have been taken straight to goodwill a long time ago.
Like the tops that have been washed so many times
I can't even remember what color they once used to be.
Clothing I purchased a lifetime ago.
Dresses, pants and skirts bought for a completely different life.
As I pull out each drawer, the memories are surfacing quickly.
It's almost overwhelming.
Memories of a much younger tess.
A hopeful and happy tess.
Before heartbreaks and responsibilities.
Before life REALLY had begun I guess.
From a time when things were easy.
Matters were black and white back then (or at least that's what I thought).
Everything was OH SO clear.
As I unfold and sweep my hand across the soft fabric
I realize that I have been holding on to these clothes for all the wrong reasons.
Not because they are my favorite pieces or that they make me look fab.
Honestly, most of them are way too small and just make me feel fat...
But I realized today that I was holding onto them as if they somehow
could stop time. Freeze it, and make the happy moments last forever.
As if keeping them neatly folded in a gray dresser would
keep me closer to my old friends
and preserve those happy memories for eternity.
Silly I know.
But I didn't realize that I was doing it until this very moment.
I wonder why?
I am in such a wonderful happy place in my life right now.
Married to my best friend.
Maybe I was supposed to hold on to them for all these years.
Waiting for the right moment to let go.
As I filled up blue IKEA bags with clothes, shoes, belts and
purses I could feel myself breathe a little easier...
Smile a little wider :o)
With sunlight in my heart and plenty of room in the memory bank,
I am so ready for the bright future!
I love you for reading my ramblings