good things take time

 the trickiest part is to pick which one to work on next...
I want to do them all right now ;o)



Do you ever stop to ponder as to why you are the way you are?

I do that a lot.

Not to find things to blame or fix, more so of the curious nature.

And maybe I just like to think about things. A lot.

I think I've mentioned before that I tend to forget to enjoy the present.

Always looking so far ahead into the future 

I sometimes miss moments of joy right here and now.

I always have that massive to-do-list in my head. 

Filling up every spare moment.

And if I finish something early you know I will find something else to start.

I don't know if I can change. Or even if I want to change.

I think I like to be busy. To have a lot going on.

But I don't want to miss things along the path just cause 

I was so busy trying to see what was lurking around the corner. 

That I need to change. 

I need to remind myself to pause. Inhale. Smell the flowers. Exhale. 

Be thankful for my health. My loved ones. 

I need to tell myself constantly that good things take time.

And I have to let them take the time they need. 

Like my work. They take time. 

I am not a glittering jewel machine...

But I confess I do watch with envy when others present 

mountains of shiny new things with a: Look what I did this weekend!

Maybe I'll be that productive one day. 

Or maybe I don't want to be that productive! 

I love the whole process of making. 

The figuring things out, scratching my head part. 

Even the messing up part.... 

and especially the Ooops I still have things to learn part. 

Love it.  It makes me feel happy. 

I know everything changes when you have to make a living out of your art. 

Maybe I am just naive. 

But I hope that doesn't change if I ever get the
opportunity to really pursue my dreams.

Sharing this is really good for me. 

I feel like I am growing as a person. 

In front of all of you. Thank you for listening.

I want to be honest with my blogging. About who I am. 

I feel so honored that you would drop by just to see what is
happening in my life. It's truly amazing.  You are all amazing.

My life is not just shiny jewels and pretty photos. 

My life is so much more than what might meet the eyes on these pages.

But I know we all pick what we share. 

Which photos to show. 

In a way it can be a glorified version of who we are. 

Or who we would like to be or become. 

I think that is true for most of us who blogs.

Letting people in can be scary.

Letting everyone in the whole world in is terrifying to say the least.

Plus I do think you prefer photos of pretty rocks than my dirty socks? No? 

I could probably arrange for a show-it-all photo session..  ha ha

anyways thank you for reading my rants. 

For being here while I take this journey..

Learning to slow down.

I am very excited about the future but

more than anything I am so grateful for today. 

happiness is green eyeshadow

love ~tess